This whole blogging thing just ain't working for me.
I don't know how people do it, with these beautiful, successful blogs, with their awesome writing careers and brands that they somehow magically make work. Are they really THAT focused on some one particular thing in their writing life that making it their one theme-- their "brand," actually comes easily? And do they really have enough time on their hands to keep up on posting ALL the time, in addition to their regular writing? And HOW for the love of Pete, do they gain this magical thing called a following?
Don't get me wrong, I really appreciate those of you, you faithful few, who keep up with my blog and social media regularly. It means a lot to know there are a few people out there interested in what I do. But it's a precious few.
I don't know how many countless times I've sat down and made big plans for this blog, for coming up with a solid brand, for posting regularly, for doing unique, fun things on a regular schedule... ha. Ha ha. HAHAHAHAHAHAAAAA!!!!!! As much of a planner as I am, it's just not a realistic dream at this point. Do I still want to do fun and unique things? Of course. Would I still love to grow my audience? Well duh. Turns out though, I'm just not Superwoman. My life is just too complicated, busy, and crazy, and, as proved by that nervous breakdown incident this spring, trying to force myself to do everything just doesn't work. If there's anyone else out there who feels the pressure and just can't juggle all the demands, you're not alone! But admitting that I can't do it all, that I can't please everyone every time, that sometimes I need to just chill, has been a major step in getting back to feeling like a sane person. Not everyone is going to be happy when you say no, but when its a choice between health and sanity, vs. keeping up with everyone's expectations, please, choose sanity. They'll get over it, I promise.
So the two major things I've been struggling with when it comes to this whole blogging thing, are:
- Sticking to a theme.
- Sticking to a schedule.
And here's my ultimatum.
No pressure.
No more promises that things are changing, that there will be more happening on the blog, that as soon as things stop being QUITE so crazy, I'll do better. Things never. stop. being. crazy. And honestly, all this trying, trying, trying, gets to be counter productive. So here's what's going to happen. I'm going to post cool, unique, fun things, along with probably some boring things, and it's going to happen when it happens. Maybe I'll pick up a following, maybe not. But I'm going to be writing what's on my heart, regardless of whether it fits a brand. It's just going to be my crazy, country, writing life, and all the simple, good, amazing things that fill it up. It's going to have more flavor of the things that make me-- and my writing-- unique. The fantasy worlds that I create are driven by the life I live, the things I believe and hold dear, and the ideas I love, just like every other writer. How can you try to fit that into a box? Maybe someday I'll find a way. Maybe someday I'll finally make it as a writer, and be able to spend the hours I want keeping up with all the things they say you have to do... maybe someday I'll reach that lofty height of having a publisher, a marketing team, and a website that's run by someone else... In the mean time, welcome to my sloppy life.
Love,
me
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